realize

Get online, link to the blog, this is the first time for me to check up all articles i posted/moved here since the day i combined everything together.



And i realized something terrible...



Which is that, i have been observed myself for such a long time, and i had already said something absolutely correct about myself several years ago. but i forgot. 



I don't even remember that I had known that part of me, or, the truth of my struggling soul.



I wrote "太長一段時間裡，我用太多力氣太深遂的心思專注於自己的悲劇中無法自拔，等到終於甦醒已經失掉了在這個世界中走動的能力與知識..." on July 20, 2003. You can say that this is bloody right until now, even if things have not go better after i realized that.



But I DID NOTICED THE WAY I AM at that moment.



What did I do after then?



This question make me sad and sigh.